My Story
Hello, I am Bianca Noir. I am a multi disciplinary artist. I am currently unemployed due to being a victim of trafficking and facing eviction and in the process of obtaining social benefit. I have been trying to balance working a regular job or two with my life as an artist in Winchester. There's a long story but over 20 years ago I tried to make it on my talent alone as a performing artist, actress and model. It didn't work, there is a lot of rumors and drama but people stopped paying me and I have been trying to get help with labor and trafficking issues ever since. In fact, that's what my first novel was all about: "Without The Mask".
Effective of January 2026 my psychiatrist has stated that I am disabled and can't work, leaving the state of my foundation, my home and everything that I have built in utter limbo. My diagnosis is Delusional Disorder and Anxiety Disorder (Extreme) . I do fight the delusional disorder diagnosis insisting that I have CPTSD instead. That I am not delusional but very talented. My anxiety is extreme touching upon several types of anxiety:
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Generalized Anxiety Disorder
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Panic Disorder
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Social Anxiety Disorder
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Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
According to AI:
"Delusional disorder is a psychotic condition marked by persistent, fixed false beliefs (delusions) that aren't rooted in reality, but unlike schizophrenia, the person often functions normally outside of the delusion, which typically involves plausible, non-bizarre situations like being followed, poisoned, or having a disease, impacting relationships and work but not severely impairing overall life. Key types include persecutory (being plotted against), erotomanic (believing someone loves you), grandiose (great talent/fame), jealous (partner unfaithful), and somatic (bodily sensations/illness). Treatment focuses on therapy and sometimes medication, with the goal of managing the impact of these fixed beliefs."
I am not currently affiliated with agency or management and typically I have to remain employed by at least 2 other companies, just to pay bills. My main concern on the job has always been helping customers with work related things and focusing on store policy and at work I stay in my own lane, leaving any personal issues at the door. Then everything switched and my personal life, despite how private I am became the central focus of others. It remains that I have no comment about politics or religion while on the job, however, I can see that this dynamic has yet again been ineffective at stabilizing my survival despite my experience level and education.
Really, working directly with the public has become increasingly difficult because of people crowding me and customers and employees generally being confused as to why I am even in the building and assuming I am a paid commercial ambassador or I do not need a job because I must have a fortune which is a gross assumption that is basically killing me. It's time to get real and realize that the people you think are wealthy simply may not be. People simply did not take my commitment to my every day jobs seriously and I am really much more qualified to work within a tech and computer science field. I have recently applied for jobs in computer science, IT and performing arts and am waiting for responses meanwhile filing for unemployment. I am still looking. If I do work outside the arts, the job has to utilize my technical skills that separates me from the customers, the public.
In customer service I experience an extremely high level of over exposure to people that causes me and others a lot of unnecessary anxiety and stress. It's much better for everyone if like other performers and artists, I am on stage with the customers at a distance in the audience. People having such a high level of access to me is dangerous.
PERSONALITY: Despite what some would assume about my appearance I am a very cerebral person. However, when people get to know me they usually are surprised by how silly I can be sometimes, I am not a narcissist, I am very down to earth. I can also be a good listener and very thoughtful but I reserve the right to let people in. I believe in a personal life and a professional life. What happens on site where I am being paid is professional, off site, it's personal. I enjoy expressing myself in many ways and comedy is a favorite. I consider myself to be hard working and ethical. I have been straight edge and vegan since 2012 and while last year was focusing on taking my projects and enterprise to the next level, this year I am focusing on not ending up in an early grave. I am a deeply creative and passionate person who does not fit the mold or conform, in fact I can't fit, try as you might.
EDUCATION: I started performing and acting as an amateur in my youth. I loved being both in front of the camera and behind it and loved staging photos and filmmaking. I excelled academically and my best subjects was English, art and drama and I participated in chorale and singing both at high school and college and performed in a few theatrical productions. I was unable to finish college but have many credits and may return some day. I changed my major three times, from anthropology to dance and then finally on computer science and I did very well in my classes.
BEAUTY: As an adult I later went to beauty school and became a licensed state board esthetician and have no interest in returning to the field as I am incredibly sensitive to energy and have become a bit too clairvoyant and no longer feel comfortable working in an environment that involves actively touching others as there is too much drama and crossing over. The aspect of health, healing, youthful skin and science still greatly interest me as does medical science in general I would love a carrier designing skincare or selling products professionally, as an ambassador. While not currently working in the field I continue my passion in beauty, skincare and cosmetics.
DANCE: I have always danced but began seriously studying and developing my own style as a teenager with ethic styles. In college I began focusing on classical dance: ballet and modern and I also learned some hip hop, breakin' and other styles including release and various flow oriented movement modalities. I continued to study ballet seriously and publish videos of my freestyle technique online.
LIFE PHILOSOPHY:
"My philosophy on art is that art is a way to express oneself about their reality, to cope and communicate without explanation. I don't believe art has to be pretty or perfect to have value."
-Bianca Noir
I have always loved anything creative and as I got older I couldn't stop, it's compulsory. When I couldn't find opportunities that inspired me I began investing in my own projects but I find no matter what I do, getting a second job, or trying to sell merchandise I am cursed with debts as opposed profits which seems to be an endless cycle which I have attributed to being a trafficked individual. Unfortunately, without making profits I am often forced to suddenly end projects or temporarily pause them which tends to upset people.
PROJECTS: I am a self published author under the pseudonym Eve Ellis and in 2010 I independently published a book series called "The Beginnings of Eve Elliss Series." I also independently published my first electronic music project Eve Ellis on bandcamp, and it can all be found via google search. On May 21, 2024 I released a 200+ page pop fiction (LGBTQIA+ interest) novel, complicated, satirical and controversial with puzzling twists which is entitled, "Quinn's On Crack". "Quinn's On Crack" is self-published under the pseudonym Eve Elliss.
In 2018 I independently released my first EDM/Dubstep and Trap influenced music project under the artist name Dubluxe. While Dubluxe is produced, instrumental music I still have a lot of ideas how this music could be performed in clubs and at events.
In 2024 I began extensive work with AI creation resulting in what I think to be some pretty groundbreaking work in computer science utilizing the web tool Pixlr to create album artwork specifically tailored to my projects. Then I began to embark on a journey with Luma AI, where I created the AI character "Jester" who embodies the spirit of an ancient Jester trapped in a castle groomed to entertain creating the motif for visualizer for the song "NO KINGS". I continued to create with AI and am now regularly using it but at a limited and conservative ussage both for philosophical and ethic reasons and then also because I am not being paid or funded in any way to expand my portfolio or experiment as a computer scientist. More recently I created a series of advertisements to promote my upcoming 2026 PARTY BOY EP starring a unique AI called "Party Boy" who is the central focus of the EP. I have also created AI using myself as a model, both in the PARTY BOY EP a cameo feature playing, myself "Bianca", the feminist bold love interest of "Party Boy" as a Anime style cartoon and action heroine.
PHILOSOPHY ON THE EVOLUTION OF COMPUTER SCIENCE:
"I don't believe the evolution of technology should be put on hold because people aren't ready or it's too fast paced and modern. For ethical reasons, when it comes to conservation of resources like energy and water, I believe it's important to put the earth and climate change, and people first. If people or animals are typically exploited, trafficked and used and abused for entertainment purposes, and people need that still, I think this is where we should insert AI. We no longer need to use real animals or children for representational purposes, we can use AI who can't be traumatized or harmed in the exploitative process. - Bianca Noir
I have never actually watched p*rnography because I don't believe in it, I believe it's unethical and sexually exploitative and people are groomed and lured into it and it's a terrible addiction and trap, even for casual users of p*rn, I don't need p*rn to fill a void within me. I think AI should take the place of p*rn actors, because many people have a hunger to engage with p*rnography, I think AI could be the replacement for this kind of sexual exploitation and abuse. There should definitely be protocol and law put into place so that the essence and image of the human individual is not harmed. - Bianca Noir
"I don't believe AI should limit people or hurt people or living things, AI should enhance our lives, making it easier. I believe humans and AI can work collaboratively, along side human beings as an assistant, never the director, never the creator, never in control. Human's are in control, in the driver seat with AI. Never the other way around." - Bianca Noir
MUSIC:
Dubluxe Discography
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Album: "Dubluxe" 2018
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Album: "Dubluxe 2" 2019
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Single: "Polyamory" 2023
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Single: "Secret Affairs With High-Profile People" 2023
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Album: "Dubluxe 3: For My True Fans" 2023
On April 10th 2024 I released my first album on BandLab:
Album: "Trapped" 2024
Then, I released several Dubluxe remixes of the artist songs on YouTube and on October 31st I released an album entitled, "Dubluxe 3: For My True Fans" which is dedicated to all my true fans that have been there since even before Dubluxe. This album is slightly derivative of the other two albums but has made distinctive advancements in progress, one thing to notice about this album is that each track is 160bpms which is faster than most of the other Dubluxe tracks.
In March of 2024, I began releasing cover songs with vocals and completely produced by me which can be found on SoundCloud and BandLab under my account Bianca Noir.
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Blue Jeans Cover | 2024 | Lana Del Rey
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Two Of Hearts | 2024 | Stacey Q
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Old Town Road | 2024 | Lil Nas X (feat. Billy Ray Cyrus, Young Thug, Mason Ramsey)
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Dead Man's Party | 2024 | Oingo Boingo
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Numb Cover | 2025 | Linkin Park
I also produce, direct, provided costuming, makeup and edit the official videos for my covers:
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Blue Jeans Official Music Video 2024
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Old Town Road Official Music Video 2024
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Dead Man's Party Official Music Video 2024
Check out my originally produced tracks on Spotify and all listening platforms under my artist name: Bianca Noir of Dubluxe.
Notable tracks for Bianca Noir of Dubluxe are:
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Gotta Hustle
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I Lie Awake
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Amateur Grifters
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Lost Without Your Love
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Night Life
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Impermanence
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NO KINGS
In 2025 I released the full original album "NO KINGS" for which I wrote, produced and provided lyrics and vocals for and mastered. All album artwork and visualizers were created by me, all AI was created by me, editing and releasing the album was done by me.
In 2026, I am releasing the "Party Boy EP". I produced, wrote, provided lyrics and vocals. I created the EP artwork, created the AI and visualizers myself as well. I also created a multipart series of promotional advertisements that when watched together create a mystery puzzle and short film.
A PIONEER ARTIST: Not unlike artist of the past such as Martha Graham or Ruth St. Dennis, even Bob Fosse I am always chasing something whether it be spiritual omens or the flicker of creative fire. As I pioneer of film makings, producing, music, dance, theater, directing, acting, modeling and writing I strive to transition my career into the performing arts completely but it's true I always have to be employed by another company and consistently work two regular jobs to survive, usually in customer service.
Political Art: I have a history of involvement with political art and activism, incorporating, validating and publicizing especially my own scientific theories findings and facts. I do this through literature by writing emails, posting, both long and short form opinion and research reports and essays and by posting my unformulated research and linking the work of others together sometimes incorporating the work of AI as well. I use many mediums to express myself and encapsulate my concepts such as but not limited to independent music, literature, film making, theatre, acting and photography and the production, editing and creation thereof.
Political and Organizational Affiliations: I have voted in every major election since turning 18 and now in my community I vote in local elections as well. I realized I was always voting Democrat and eventually outreached to the Democrats and expressed my alignment with the Democratic and Green Parties and have written Democrats countless letters. Politically, I am labeled as a Green Leaning Democrat. Growing up being surrounded by recreational partying with substances, alone I rejected it but loved the party atmosphere from an explorative, philosophical perspective. I wanted community, art, music and the spread of PMA (positive mental attitude), not drugs, alcohol, smoking, crime, sexual violence, trafficking.
By 2012, I had reported myself as a possible victim of violence and trafficking and committed to a straight edge and vegan lifestyle. Throughout my party lifetime I heard about straight edge lifestyle and how my friends and partners rejected them but deep down, I knew I aligned with the straight edge community and didn't believe in the consumption of animal products. While Davey Havok of AFI was at the time this fabled rumor of being the most prominent straight edge in regards to who I knew, I escaped them and adjusted myself to be more like Davey. Now, strengthened after surviving over 12 years as a vegan/straight edge without breaking I realize I am still the maverick and lone wolf I always was as word of mouth about the vegan and straight edge community does not reach me and I constantly seek it out.
I myself have by happenstance become, a political artist, advocate and leader. What connects me to others involved in politics is a survival based drive to protect the United States constitution and the freedoms of the constitution and Democracy. What separates me from some invovled in politics is my dedication to separation of church and state, my beliefs on separation of church and state, my belief in non conformity but the regulation of corruption, abolishment of corruption and oppressive forces. I am a bit of a separatist who believes in nonconformity and acceptance and appreciation of individual uniqueness. I don't believe in underestimating potential. I believe in a strong central Democratic government that should compassionately provide for it's people what is universally good for the survival of all beings and the planet including all the top, most cutting edge and modern resources, education, benefits, technology, and survival needs and shelter regulating this with law and protection for all beings and destroying any corruption that would prevent compassionate policy. That doesn't necessarily mean the survival of current society but the embetterment of it for global and positive change.
Spirituality: I grew up in a very confusing, broken and violent and strict lifestyle. There were a mixture of predators revolving in and out of my life and my mother's inability to be the backbone I required growing up in the late 80's and 90's made me a quite and reserved student with high functioning cognitive ability. Because I was told I would never succeed without A grades I focused completely on my education, ignoring the absurd immaturity, ridicule and persecution of my peers. I was a lone wolf, I was always an observer and on the outside looking in who didn't care what my peers thought but feared being cornered by them. Overtime, I attracted attention and social controversy and negative attention and popularity though I did not understand it or even realize what was happening.
I was raised Christian and after my mother decided against going to church I asked to go alone as a schoolgirl which resulted in sexual abuse by a church predator and my eventual rejection of Christianity. One day I prayed and asked to permanently leave the church because I had seen too much hypocrisy. I was roughly 13. I had already developed a well rounded understanding of the world, culture, history, philosophy and religion at that point. By 15 I had been exposed to Satanism and Satan worship and had rejected ritualistic animal sacrifice, abuse and violence associated with this religion and philosophy. By 16 years old I had began roaming freely and reading random philosophies, then studying Paganism and Wicca but felt nothing and saw nothing and rejected it with only the hopes that there was something I didn't know, such as an invisible fairy kingdom, unknowable to humans. By 20 I began studying science, objectively studying Buddhism. I identified then as an Atheist and practicing Buddhist.
By 2008-1009 I was studying yoga and dance at an extremely intense pace and became close to death through lack of resources, utilities, food and water, proper care, western medicine and being neglected by everyone I trusted and the system, and became what I considered to be a form of enlightenment that was a state of "Enso" and I was changed through the practice of non attachment. Surviving this, it was at this point when I began to experience intense spiritual and chaotic telepathic messages and empathic feelings. I had always been sensitive but I rejected anything that was not proven by science. I tried very hard to hide this and rejected it and was brandished by those who knew me as having psychosis and a mental breakdown which was unproven by doctors. My most intense struggle was the the cognitive dissonance between what I was predicting and what was real because it made it difficult for me to prove, I was confused by messages of chaos and lies, having intense feelings, I was in a spiritual and psychological quandary. Eventually, I had to let go of how I felt about what messages I was receiving and accept that I wasn't like other humans despite what others may think.
I eventually created healthy mental and neurological pathways on my own that did not end or delete the telepathy and clairvoyance. I was never able to stop predicting things. Time and time again I proved to myself that my predictions are more and more true. It grew stronger, and I grew more gifted keeping this a secret now realizing I have a gift. The gift of channeling, mediumship, telepathy, predictions, and sympathetic empathy for other beings. It's not something that I can exploit as a living. Right now, I am learning how to use my gift being guided only by my instincts and what I perceive to be both kind and nefarious energies and spirits, both living and non living (realizing that on this level there is no difference with this gift between the spirits who are living and those who have died) and learning to reject what is not helpful or necessary to my goals of uplifting the world and raising awareness, shifting from negative attitudes to positive mental attitudes and protecting the planet and it's natural resources and manifesting what's universally best for all beings at once. My spiritual gifts are not to be exploited for selfish gain, they are not reliable and are constantly evolving. Some moments are spiritual and sometimes are not. Sometimes, I return to a state of "normalcy" a normal person with nothing happening with my gifts. Everything is just mundane and every day.
Again, I have no comment about politics or religion while on the job.
MY AGENDA: I always am interested in paying opportunities and collaborations with other artists. I am looking to front a band and am currently looking for interested and dedicated musicians.
I could always use help with things, legal and otherwise and also with funding my projects.
You can find the work of Bianca Noir on all music streaming platforms, Bandlab, YouTube and now Patreon.